First IUI.

So yesterday was our first IUI. We woke up early, had breakfast and then proceed to take DH’s sample. We rushed to the doctor, and we made it on time. They took the sample and told us to wait in the lobby.

After 50 minutes more or less, they called us for the procedure. The nurse asked me to verify the information and to lay down. The first speculum was too big, so she had to change it. After that, she had a little bit of trouble find it my cervix (my uterus is retroverted), and I had to cough a few times. Then, she cleaned the area with some huge Q-Tips. And then, she slowly inserted the catheter with the semen.

She said that I didn’t need to lay down for 15 minutes, that it doesn’t make any difference. I was confused because everything that I read said that. She told me that we had the room for as long as we needed it, so I was welcomed to lay down. But after 5 minutes I figured she must know more than me, and I got dressed. My husband went to work, and I came to mine.

The first hour was uneventful. Then I started to have pain, lots of pain. I had pain in my ovaries, my abdomen, and parts of my body that I don’t know how to describe. By the time I left my work, I had pain even walking. I’m going to assume that it was ovulation pain because of all the medicines. I took it easy yesterday night, and by today, the pain is so much better. It went from 8 to 4 in the morning. By now, is like a 2.

So now we just have to wait and pray.

Wait… what?

clearblueHello from cycle day 21!!!

The Holiday Season had me very busy and I forgot to give an update on this crazy cycle.

As I said before, I purchased the Clearblue Advanced Digital Ovulation test to see if it was different. I tested on day 14 and it was blank, as expected. Well, when I tested on day 15, I got the high peak smiley face. Not the flashy one, the steady one! I was surprised because I usually get my LH surge around day 18.

After researching online (always a bad idea), I found that most people think this advanced test is not as reliable. To make things worse, once the high peak is displayed, it stays there for 48 hours, you can’t test. So I managed to get a previous test device and I inserted the new test sticks in there and it worked, and I had my 2nd smiley face on day 16…

Tomorrow I’m going for the blood test, let’s see what happens.

Nada. Nothing. Rien.

Ok, I’m freaking out here a little… As you know, yesterday was cycle day 18 and I didn’t get  my smiley face. I was so sure it was going to happen, that I even re-tested in the afternoon.

Then I convinced myself that it was going to be today, and guess what? Nothing! So now I’m calculating how long after my period is over I ovulated the past month and it was 12 days later, so that means I could have the smiley face tomorrow. This month my period lasted a little bit longer.

Hopefully, that’s the case. But seriously, I’m freaking out!

Where is my smiley face?

Today is cycle day 18 and I didn’t get my smiley face. Just yesterday I was telling C (that’s my hubby) that I didn’t have the ovulation symptoms this month: no sore boobs, no low back pain and no egg white discharge. And for some reason, I wasn’t excited about ovulation.

Well, now that I didn’t get my smiley face I’m sad. What if I didn’t ovulate this month? That would be very bad news, since I’m taking medicine to assist with ovulation and so far, it worked.

I’m hoping I get my smiley face tomorrow. This morning I did have the egg white discharge that I have one or two days prior the LH surge/ovulation, so I’m hoping that I’m just ovulating later.

Gosh, I hate that I have to be so conscious about my body and the things it does. It only creates more anxiety.

Thanksgiving/Staycation/Almost time

WhatsApp Image 2017-11-27 at 10.33.52 AMI haven’t write in a few days because I’ve been very busy! Baby Luna is keeping me in a tight schedule.

I don’t get to many holidays at work but for Thanksgiving we got 3 days! We were supposed to go to Atlanta to meet my best friend’s new baby daughter, but I got a terrible cold and wasn’t so sure of leaving baby Luna at home so soon. So we didn’t. We were excited about going on vacation but that’s how life works.

But in a way, I kind of loved staying at home, enjoying my dear hubby and our new baby. She doesn’t let us sleep too much but I guess it’s good practice for when the baby finally comes.

On Thanksgiving we went to my cousin’s house. I have a big family and we try to spend all holidays together. This year was difficult because three sisters are not getting along, but hopefully that gets better in the near future.

On Saturday we drove to Orlando with my stepson. He is 16 years old and a very good kid. My sister stayed at our house babysitting (or is it petsitting?). We went to see La Nouba, by Cirque Du Soleil. I always wanted to go and they are closing on December 31. We ate a very spicy meal at House of Blues before the show (I ended up eating a hot dog at the Cirque).

The lady at the hotel told us that since we were staying for a night and live relatively close, we were having a staycation. Hubby loved the word!

And now we are back to reality. And I realized today is cycle day 16, which means I’m in my fertility window and I’m supposed to ovulate in 2-3 days. And I’m not excited. I don’t know why. I’m just not excited this month. I guess I’m protecting myself from the disappointment.



Almost time…

… to start peeing on the stick again!

I’m on cycle day 10. According to my RE and almost everyone you have to start peeing on the stick and having intercourse every other day starting on day 10 up to day 20. Well, by now, I already know that I have my LH surge on cycle day 18. But still, I can’t not test because I don’t want to risk it. So the latest I’ve been able to start so far is cycle day 11. You’ll think that giving how expensive those tests are, I would be able to contain myself.

Since I have PCOS, I can’t use the regular ovulation test. I have to use the digital one with the beautiful and yet elusive smiley face. So it’s about $36 for a two month supply (20 tests). But somehow, I always manage to get one test done incorrectly, so I’m not sure the two month thing is working for me.

What I don’t like of this process is the stress it creates and the pressure. You know that when that smiley face comes, you HAVE to have sex. And that is not fun and that alone could kill the mood. And when you love and desire your partner, you don’t want to make him feel like a baby machine.

As I said before, this process could be exhausting. But I have faith in our love and in us and hopefully, the end result will be a beautiful baby.